Back to school
A small miracle, a miracle nonetheless — my third year in college. It’s been a wonderful experience, college. Within it, outside it, around it I have experienced happy moments through my college experience.
Many months ago, well, not so many I thought I would be better off leaving the whole experience behind — but I decided against it. I haven’t been my best self over the past years but it’s been a project that’s slowly coming together and it has only taken me time to realize that:
Many times, the way forward is through.
College resumes today, well being a self-acclaimed maverick, I certainly won’t be resuming today but in my mind I am present with everything happening.
I will be letting myself filter through spaces on campus and just have a feel for the emotions around [not certain to what end, yet this is my intention].
It won’t be considered progress if I wasn’t setting goals for the year and semester I believe. However, I have decided to focus on less. Way less. Overtime I have tried to carry on my shoulders too many things that I believed heightened my college experience being everywhere and consequently nowhere.
Certainly, being involved across projects in college is a good thing by itself since it comes with a few perks — the best being you’re able to connect with the people around. More importantly is being involved in the projects that you care about — but over time, I have come to care about less.
What kind of man would I also be if I don’t set outrageous goals for this new college year? Of course I did — but I’d keep that to myself so it stays personal. It’s nothing special, I just intend to have much better grades compared to last time and hopefully not fail Calculus this time around.
I have friends now, which is a wonderful addition, so I’m certain I will have a bit more excuse to explore safely other experiences in college. I won’t admit to drinking or clubbing, these don’t appeal to me. But I can admit to getting into a bit of mischief as I ultimately happen to be bad company.
I am happy, although not content, I am happy with my progress this far. It isn’t a lot on the surface but it is a lot in my mind. Small steps forward is all that carries the weight of achievement and these small steps gladdens me beyond measure.
Perhaps something profound may occur within the coming months. Albeit, I will be dedicating myself to taking those small steps everyday until my small miracles compound into something larger than myself.
Until again, be safe.
WILLIAMS FALODUN.
